A short short love story

I met a man who was came from US.
Now,he lives near Nagoya,but came to see me all the way when we meet.
I had wonderful time with him,it was a short time though...
We were able to see only a few times,but I had a really deep emotion that I can feel.
We always said"I wish you were here.","We wish we were together always."

I was able to forget about last boyfriend when we meet.
That was a one of important thing for me...
As I still couldn't forget about last boyfriend.
I have a history,he also had a deep deep history.

I felt we fit more and more during our time together.
Before we met, I already had a good feeling from his way to talk and what he said,I don't know why,but I felt it.
After we met, I felt stronger.

He always told me how he feel and what he think.
He couldn't speak Japanese though...
I tried to speak what I feel in English.
I thought my feeling was quite close to him.
I hope that was correct.

He was professional musician that released CDs in US.
He can play guitar and drums and bass,also write lyrics,he can make music completely by himself.
It showed me very much of who he is.
He has much of talent.
I was able to respect and admire him.I thought it is amazing that he can.

We also were similar,I thought.
We both were got a divorce and no kids,we hoped to live together as soon as we can.

But one day,we made mistake,and started to hurt each other deeply...
I sent hateful email to him,I didn't care about hurting him.
He also sent me mean things.
Day by day it getting worse.
We were so sensitive how we are acting each other.

I thought we shouldn't hurt any more,he also didn't want to hurt me.
I swore never ever message mean things to him,but it was too late.
We couldn't fix our relationship.
If we were able to see everyday,and we have common language,we would be fix.
I still don't know why we couldn't fix.
It could be fix in the future...
I still don't know that I would like to fix or not...
I hurt him deeply.
The way I acting was horrible for him.

He always said to me....

”Hiromi,you are amazing.
I spend most amazing time with you.
Every moment is amazing when I am with you.
I feel I can not control my feeling for you.
I need you. I need to give you love, I need your love, I need to see you, hear you, touch you, kiss you, I never want to stop.
Give yourself to me,be mine completely,I want to be your everything,and you will be my everything.
I like you the way you are.
You are the best.You are perfect.
I miss you,my sweet heart.”

These words that he told me made me cry,because I couldn't love him that much.

He really loved me,but I couldn't love him.
This is the mistake.

I loved him as much as I can,but I maybe would like to run away from him.
I can't describe how I was,but I am sure I want to run away from him.
I actually felt it from bottom of my heart,so I made him hurt.

Love can be scary that I did for him,but makes many people run.
It should be more simple than we think.

That is all of my bitter love story in these days.
I couldn't do anything for him.
I hope he has great great days in the future.